Finally is over~

I can't get myself for a sleep tonight. I've been struggling for the work loads and MC prepared for entired week. Whenever i talked with Cheong Hooi, Susan and langzhai members, i never stop complaining about the MC things which is too much additional for me. My feeling changed after the annual dinner.

Honestly, i hope that this annual dinner is not gonna end, because suddenly i get the feeling of what i've never had since few years ago. I feel that i found some true friends here... When i start working for this job, i tell myself, i'm not going to entertain any "friends" as true friends.. Somehow, my thought is wrong... When i step into the dinner ballroom for the preparation and rehearsal, i was like shock ~! I was amazed with the environment that the commitee actually has turned a sampah room to a simple but highclass room. You'll agree with me if you get to see the original look for the ballroom.

At this moment, i feel everyone has done a very good job and they really put a lot of effort to do this... for me, i will never make it ... Moving to 8 p.m, the show has just started, i'm getting nervous, i thought i was very confident and able to control the environment by giving a lot of cheers for the audience, but my mind is empty at this moment, somehow Arlene always stands up to make the situation back to the normal one... Maybe you guys never realise i saying something wrong that day, but for myself, i actually realise i made a lot of mistake and confusing other ppl as well, and this is why you can see "D" has been called to the stage for so many times....haha.

I was confusing, i just tried to throw whatever words i can. At this moment, the pictures infront of my eyes suddenly going slow motion just like the "matrix" effect, i realized Arlene has done a very great job in cheering up the audience, i asked myself, if i looked at her without any ideas to say and she look at me then i'm finished, but she did keep talking.For Susan, she is the key person for the annual dinner and busy for all the time. she dont even have her own time to take her own meal, and she has to pick the food for me... After i see the food, i have no appetite to eat, i feel guilty with no doing a great job. However, Kok Aun and Anwar are also busy around to take care the PA system, they're doing very very well for controlling the PA system too but the system is too sucks and bring a lot of trouble for them...

Everyone is just so hardwork and doing well, but all i have to do is just use my mouth to speak... But, why i can't do it well?? I'm not blaming myself but just have some doubt of why people can do so well, and i screw up some portion, maybe most of the people never realise that... and the story in my mind keep bla bla bla....

Although i've made some mistake on the stage, but after the show, everyone keep encouraging me, i was very touched, like what susan has told me "you've done a very great job" and cheong hooi "Although you're nervous but you have a good experience". Yes, this is a very good experience for me indeed. Nothing is more scarier than demise..

I've learnt some lesson after the Annual dinner, i tell myself "Chee Ern, don't just keep complaining, whenever people assign something for you to do, take it as a chance, FOCUS and PREPARE well just for your own portion. Be happy and cheerful all the time whenever any problems i faced. Don't be scare, because nothing is worst than the end of the day"

Once again, i told myself "Don't ever think of suffer when somebody is working harder and more suffer than you". There's a small portion that i mentioned in my speech, "ya, my friends are very helpful people." without "pressing my heart" to say it.

Lastly, for the talk at starbuck, i feel very very happy, thanks to all my friends and commitees. You guys are crazy...haha (Additional = thanks to my gf as well and sorry that i've not much time to spend with you for the entire week)